Many times this year I've fought downhill. The wind at my back and an army of friends and family at my side have helped me get and achieve whatever I want. It's made me lazy and cocky. I have had every advantage to succeed in the last couple years in: academics, work, home life and love life that it would make some people plain sick; however, I chose to ignore approximately ninety percent of the opportunities that arose. Every class I blew off, every social screw-up, every time I didn't take work seriously, all of that is changing. I wish I could say it's ending, but I'm no perfect little robot. It's an interesting change to have a series of events whisk away the mentality of a slacker, but with how much my life is warping I must change or be defeated. When I was between goals in life several months ago and thought I was going to try joining the SEALs, I invested more of my life into the goal than I had ever done for anything with the possible exception of high school soccer tryouts. The fire I had for a secure future pushed my limitations, and helped me realize that I needed to consider all my cards in the deck of life. I would love to thank anyone that has helped me see this, and pulled me along by the ear. It's what I need sometimes, and although I may look and sound like an adult, I'm a scared-ass little child that still has no idea what I'm doing. It's tough to admit for somebody as big-headed and pig-headed as I, but I've been blessed with more than enough people that care about me that will help my sorry butt along than I deserve. I can honestly say the fire under my ass may be finally lit, if not by chance, by the combined efforts of a dozen family members and friends. Thanks guys.
To those that read this blog...hah
(short list...heheh..)
-Elaina, thanks for the job!
-Nana, thanks for the guidance and spoils (she spoils me hardcore)
-Mom, Dad, Holly and Mark, thanks for coddling me as I fail and succeed, and loving me for who I am. (That spoiled slacker kid.)
-Ali, with my first paycheck I'm bringing booze to Tally and we're drinking it.
-Linds, thanks for pushing me the years that you did. Hope you get a sweet job.
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