Pulling The Slack

Realizations can be ugly, despicable, wonderful and glorious things. Today, I believe I went through one of each adjective. Ugly for the ignorance that oozed out of the Kia Rio that hit me, reminding me how ghetto Pensacola is. It fueled my "get the *bleep out of Pensacola" engine. Despicable for realizing I'm becoming more responsible, which is a half full cup. However you look at the cup, half full or half empty, it's only half full. You're right no matter the view. Like Einstein said, "Whether you think you can, or you think you can't, you're right." (I love mind-effing quotes) So I scheduled home insurance people to come tomorrow while I was driving to buy a new phone charger, then wrote down the name of the AHS agent so I could talk to her in case anything went amuck. I'm pretty sure that's responsible. If it's not, going to bed in 20 minutes so I can get sleep for my 6 AM shift tomorrow is. The wonderful came with hate for Pensacola. I realized that despite having to learn about insanely androgenous tasks like bending pipe and greasing wire, I don't like it. It's a simple realization, but one that took me the thinking route of, "I want my Bachelor's degree." (More responsiblity) I can only be so thankful for a high-paying (for my age) career in the electrical field, and am watching people around me settle into mediocrity. The doldrums aren't for me. I've considered military life, moving west to pursue selfish goals, and moving north to pursue emotional goals; however, the greatest choice is to think more. Until I have this job under my thumb, I can't make any decisions. Knowing that I don't like my job is the wonderful realization. Knowing I can use my company to change my job and surroundings is the glorious realization. It may sound silly to the reader, but as I fall asleep to the thunderstorm tonight I'll probably be thinking, "Thank goodness for Siemens." (Either that or, damn I wish I was surfing tomorrow morning haha...)