I just got promoted! The electrician you once knew is now a design engineer, and thus; with more time in the office, around computers, the blog you once knew has changed as well. I've always considered myself an intellectual, and have had issues putting faith in any higher power. My logic and disdain together create atheism, and there is a void of true love in such a world. In an attempt to gain some vain ideology on religion, I'm shifting toward a spiritual point of view-one that actually cares about my own soul. I've slept with the Bible close to my head at night for about a year, but honestly, haven't picked it up but a dozen times. It's an aesthetic part of my room over everything else; however, this last week in New Orleans has helped me grow. The first couple days were spent partying with Nawlins locals- girls that attended Tulane. I had a lot of fun with them, but I became more interested in hanging out with a fellow futbol player/coworker. Gil showed light on some massive holes in my life, several of which nothing could fill but religion. He was actually a Sephardic Jew, one of those Torah-totin' rabbi types, but he did an amazing job of renewing my faith. It feels like every time I turn around there's something else I need to ask forgiveness for nowadays; I'm a sinner among sinners, but I have this subtle undercurrent of hope whirring around inside me.
One of my favorite passages Gil showed me:
Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal; but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. Matthew 6
